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I will survive!!

Sorry about not blogging.  My life has been turned completely upside down since I last sat down to write.

About 4 months ago....I separated from my husband of almost 8 years. 

I never thought that this would happen to me or that this was my fate.....but God CLEARLY has other plans.
I will not get into the "whys".  Let's just say, once again, that I never thought I'd be here right now.

So now I embark on a new journey.........alone.  Well....not entirely alone....I have my 2 beautiful baby girls by my side. 
Everyone is saying to "stay strong" for them..........and I do...........but I believe one should stay strong for themselves.
I've done a ton self-reflection and soul searching in the past 4 months.  An episode like this makes you question EVERYTHING about your life........who you are, and why you are in this position right now.  What brings me solace, is knowing that this mere snapshot in time is not actually my life.......it's just a CHAPTER in time......a chapter in my book.  It's the craziest, shittiest chapter EVER.... but it's still....just a chapter!

What also makes me smile is seeing the support I have.  Since day one, my friends and "girls" have STEPPED....IT...UP...........YO!!!!!!!!  I have the FIERCEST, most dynamic and loyal girlfriends a woman could EVER EVER have.  And what also shocks me, is the people that have come out of the wood-work to support me.  Friends that I haven't talked to in years......DECADES even!!!!!  All of them, reaching out, just to say they love me and wish me well. 

When this whole thing went down 4 months ago, I was in a very dark place....as most people would be.  I felt like someone just threw me into a room......with no windows and no doors......pitch black......and I just sat there in the corner ......alone and scared.  But now, there is light.......it's a small stream......but I see it.....and I know that it's a sign....and it's kinda exciting :)

I don't know what my future holds.......but I feel like the next chapter is just around the corner.

And by "chapter".....I mean my next blog....stay tuned!!! 

IT'S GOOD TO BE BACK BABY!!!!!!!!

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  1. Laurie4 January 2013 at 10:52

    Hey Leo! It's funny, I have been thinking of you so much over the last month or so, wondering how you were doing and missing the random updates about your beautiful girls. So glad to see that you have "resurfaced" and are coming out stronger than ever. Journey on my lovely friend. There are many helping hands along the way (and even a few kicks in the arse should you need them).

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